Decision Made

I've finally made up my mind for the decision.....Don't know whether this was a correct or a wrong decision....I don't know......I just knew that after that decision, I think I've made that decision by "chong dong" ji dong"--in chinese......Confusing...Why will I have this kind of feeling???Can anybody tell me why and what is the reason?

I felt "fan"--in chinese and confuse and not in good mood after that decision has been made. I could not concentrate even in my work...I'm not productive and effective in work during weekends....I can just sit in the office and doing nothing...Why Why Why????

Should I think of it? Or should I just let it be as final decision has been made? And just see what is the route in front of me within these 3 mths???? Headache headache.......

Now what I can just do is working working and continuing working, eat and watch my Astro to keep myself away from thinking and thinking.....Am I correct? Guess this is the only way I can do now and nothing else.........Hope my choice is the correct one.....Perhaps.....

Ker Tyng Gambate...You can do it....I know you can......Aiks.... :(

New Year 2010

New year 2010 New Revolution.....I hope so.......But I don' t think I can stand for how long.......This new year 2010 is very tough for me.....I have to think of such a way to compete and in a way to relax myself too.....But, do you think so I can?

Crossed my fingers......Hope that my peak will be smoother this year....But I don't think so......My peak this year is even tougher, harder, and will not be smooth.....Aiks.......


Let's pray hard and sincerely so that I will be better....... :)

Final Leave

After 12 days of on leave (inclusive of Saturday and Sunday), finally my leave has been fully utilized.........Hopefully that I'm fully recharged to continue the battle in the work field.............

Don't know when will be the next holiday of mine........never mind, another week of holiday will be coming soon in the end of October.....But thereafter, I have to work until next year 2010 without a single day of leave to be taken.....aiks and poor me.......work like a robot after today.........

Who ask me to choose my own path like what my friend has told me....If you have choose this path, you have to continue until the end of the day (unless you resign).....Hope my day will be there soon (resign)...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.......

Since I've choose this career and path, I have to continue it without a single mind to quit and do my best!!!!!!

Secondary schoolmates gathering

It has been such a long time that we have not gather together like Saturday night....It was really being a long time after the last gathering......

I have been called by my so called "daughter" to go back to my hometown to attend this gathering...If not, I'll be killed.....

But it was such a lovely gathering after all....Hope to have another gathering.....

My recent feeling

I'm not sure whether I've done it correctly or wrongly.....But one thing I know was I only doing my job and just want to have everything done on time before is too late.....I have things to settle and wrap up before I can proceed to the next step or level...So, I have no choice....

I don't want things to be that way, but I don't know why it has turned to be that way.....Recently I felt that I have done the wrong thing in others point of view...They might think that that's not the correct way to do it and it might not be easy to do or even impossible....It seemes like I'm forcing them to do so without their consent.....I really don't like this feeling at all...It just pointed that I'm wrong in anyway....

I want to be myself again and I don't want my life to be so miserable and so lost direction....Hate to do all these things...Why...Can someone tell me what have I done?

Am I doing the correct thing or the wrong thing.....I don't want others to hate or dislike me..I dislike that kind of feeling......

Haiz

Friday again....everybody will be happy on that. But I don't think that person will be me......As I still have to work throughout weekends......I never have weekends..My weekends never come...Can someone tell me why????? Why my life so pity?????



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MC (Medical Cert) Day

Today I didn't go to work as I took MC from Loh Guan Lye Hospital. :( so sad......

Actually I felt not well on Friday night and thought it will be getting better on Saturday. However, it didn't seems to be. Until Sunday evening, I went to sleep at around 6pm. Caught FLU already. Poor me.

This morning after I've woke up and planned to go to Loh Guan Lye Hospital to see our doctor, I nearly blackout. I felt so dizzy and could not see the scene in front of me clearly. I could only see light without picture...so scary right...Luckily doctor said once caught FLU, you will feel dizzy and even your hands and foot will be very cold. That's normal.

I've spent RM 74.60 for my doctor consultation and medication included. Hope I can get well soon as doctor said want to give a few days leave for me to rest. But I only requested for a day MC. :)